Thursday, January 26, 2006
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN PEARLYN!!! (:
awwww. both me and nad are down wit flu and fever. can you imagine the things we go thru together? HAHAHAHA. its really funny. forced to drop amath tgt, fall sick tgt, TMR wear cheongsam tops tgt. LOL.
anywayyy.... i hope pearlyn had a great birthday and i hope everyone at school missed me. haha. it sucks to fall ill. the medicine im takin (yes im self medicating) makes me feel really queasy. it sucks. and CNY is so near, what a day to fall sick.
i've been drinking so much barley/ (chinese stuff to make you get well faster) that my tummy's exploding.
i have been studying. i think that's a great start. the problem is i have absolutely no target to gravitate towards to. that SUCKS. i watched oprah today and i REALLY think i have no ambition. cos it sucks to be realistic. its like i have no interest cos they dun offer me no thing i want. its like look at the subjects i take. why cant they have subjects that'll help you in your career. photography (i always wanted to do that) / architecture / marine biology / archeology/ EVEN geology's more interesting. i want something HANDS ON. with passion comes results i think. now im just catching whatever life's throwing at me. so i (like the rest of all sec four singaporeans HOPE to go to a good junior college wit FANTASTIC o level results) will work hard with whatever i have so as not to let anyone down.
i dun want any regrets in life. but THATS impossible. im just too afraid to take that big leap and be different and actually do something totally unethical.
anyway, my heart is giving me problems again. i have concluded (so did my doctor) that im over exerting my poor heart. but how i wish it'll silently eat me up from the inside like a predator. im afraid of the BIG D. doctors, not death. hahhaha.
to all the people i hate, good luck wit your pathetic lives.
to all the people i SECRETLY hate, thats the joy with life. you never know when its gonna SMACK you HARD in the face. ****** and ******. hahaha.
to all the people i love, i love you. and i love alot (:
the world is colder than the north pole and its found its way to ME. i've learnt to DISLIKE. a bad sign. irony is, i learnt to dislike only because dislike found its way to me first. take that.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 2:48 PM